I love the warrior theme. I have always loved reading as a boy stories of GI Joe, Navy Seals, Special Forces, Samarai Warriors, Mongol Warriors and the list goes on. When I turned 31, I achieved a dream of receiving my black belt in Tae Kwon Do from my Grand Master who was a 9th degree Black Belt from the Old Country (South Korean) and could barely speak English. Noone could test him locally for his levels of black belt because he was too senior; so he had to go back to South Korea for testing. I loved his teaching, the sport, the process and I loved living the idealized dream of learning a warrior’s craft!
Sometimes fear for me is not about the external battle but the internal one. What is most challenging is choosing HOW to do battle with FEAR. Should I choose to wrestle with the fear? Should I do a Steven Segal move on the fear (basically use the energy of the fear against itself)? do I run away from it?
I find the fears that I face now are: confidently trusting and delegating in my businesses, training, raising my kids without my parents story, living a balanced life (if there is such a thing), being a good husband, training for my next adventure, etc. While I was reading the book from Pema Chodran called “When Things Fall Apart”, I read an excerpt that pulls this all together in a way that i thought was very compelling and it energized me. Here it is,
Once there was a young warrior. Her teacher told her that she had to do battle with fear. She didn’t want to do that. It seemed too aggressive: it was scary; it seemed unfriendly. But the teacher said that she had to do it and gave her instructions for the battle. The day arrived. The student warrior stood on one side, and fear on the other. The warrior was feeling very small, and fear was looking big and wrathful. They both had their weapons. The young warrior roused herself and went towards fear, prostrated herself three times, and asked, “May I have permission to go into battle with you?” Fear said, “Thank you for showing me so much respect that you asked for my permission.” Then the young warrior said, “How can I defeat you?” Fear replied, “My weapons are that I talk very fast, and I get right in your face. Then you get completely unnerved, and you do whatever I say.” If you don’t do what I tell you, then I have no power. You can listen to me and you can respect me. You can even be convinced by me. But if you don’t do what I say, I have no power.” In that way the student warrior learned how to defeat her.